a full moon

Yesterday was my birthday.  I’m getting older and yet there are still so many things that I want to accomplish.  Last night, as I was standing outside waiting for my pup to finish her business, I glanced towards the sky and noticed the moon.  I knew it was going to be full last night, but I wasn’t prepared for how beautiful it looked to me.  I couldn’t take my eyes off of it.   Suddenly I wanted only to be free.  Free of financial constraints.  Free of the emotional baggage and scars left behind by broken promises, broken trust, a broken heart.  Free of fear. 

Every day is an opportunity.  Happiness is not something we’re given – it’s something we achieve.  A year ago, I accepted that my fate lies in my hands and I took a leap of faith.  I quit my job.  I had no idea what I was going to do but I also believed in myself enough to know that I’d figure it out.  Instead of settling for yet another cubicle I decided to return to my education so that I could create a different life for myself.  This past year has not been easy.  There have been financial concerns.  There have been days that I questioned my decision.  But through it all I’ve had the love and support of my family and my friends.  They have held my hand, and even held me up, as I traveled this road.  I am incredibly fortunate.  I am surrounded by amazingly wonderful people.  And while I may be getting older, there’s still time.   

As I continued to look towards the sky last night, I realized that I am already free.  Although I still have the constraints and the emotional baggage and the fears, I don’t let them stop me from reaching for the moon.

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